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January 30 sometimes a friend isn't a friend...O.k. well I had fun with KGQ, once I was included on the plans. Those no good selfish "friends" of mine decided to do some things with KGQ without including me... their reason.... There wasn't enough room. WHATEVER!! SO when it was convient for them I did get to visit with him and we (he, I and his friend B) had a great time. HOWEVER he tells me ya know girl, they filled me in on everything and i'm not supposed to say nothing but I just want you to know I know how women can be and I'm not taking sides and you are my friend and I'm happy that I get to see you and have some fun with you. I was calm then and just let it go, I didn't want to ruin his time on vaction and out on the town.
Then the family drama comes again...
ugh I just need to find a rock somewhere and go away for a while!
Those girls, this family... It's enough to make one loose her mind.
I'm hoping to be chipper again soon!
January 26 Friends along the wayO.k. I think I may need to apologize.. I'm trying to figure this whole blog thing out... and I'm trying to make it easy on the eyes to read and what not... so bear with me while I keep tweaking!! ....
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Well this weekend is going to be fun fun fun fun!! I'm excited to see a good friend that is coming into town. My girlfriends and I met him and some of his good friends at Myr*tle Be*ach Bi*ke week, a few years back. We have stayed in contact ever since. We actually met up with him and friends again several times at MB* BW and in their home town. So, KGQ as I will call him here, is coming to our cold state for the weekend to visit with his GAL PALS as he calls us. He's funny, and crazy all at the same time. For instance when I asked him do you have a place to stay... YEA GIRL I DO, when I ask him where is it so we can come see you and pick you up for a night out on the town... WELL I'M NOT REALLY SURE WHERE IT IS... YA SEE THE LADY AT THE HOTEL SAID THEY WERE JUST EAST OF THE AIRPORT and he proceeds to give me some name of a town that I've never heard of... not even map quest has heard of it... tee hee ha ha ... Oh KGQ!!! I'm sure we will figure it out and have a great time with him!!
You know it's funny... so many people cross your path every single day. And if you never picked your head up... you would never know how many. So since it's my life long goal to meet as many new people as I can, I always am trying to make eye contact and say hello and smile to people who cross my path. Whether I be walking into a grocery store, down the street, or whatever. It's amazing to me the reaction that I sometimes get from people. Once I was doing this at the corner grocery store by my home and this older gentleman stopped in his tracks, and just stared at me. He smiled back and said you know you are the first person this week to talk with me just because not because I was paying for something...Thank you dear. Other times they look at you like you are an alien with green gook pouring from your forehead?!?!
Try it for yourself. You might just find it heart warming.
A favorite quote of mine is..if you want to see where angels fly.. stop looking at your shoes!!!
So I'll try and get details of the weekend to ya sometime soon.. I'm sure it's going to be crazy fun!!!
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update...... talked to KGQ.... ummmm either he or the lady from the hotel need to learn directions... UUUGGHHH he's 40 miles WEST of the airport....UUUGGGHHHHHH Change the plans!!! Tee hee ha ha It's still gonna be fun! January 18 little hearts = big loveIsn't that lil man in my photo section just adorable?? I love that lil man more than anyone could imagine. He's my youngest nephew. My sister (his mommy) is my buddy too! She lives only like 3 streets from my home. So it's nothing to stop by and play for a bit. When you've had a horrible day, you just don't get the world or whatever has you down, I just go to my happy place. That's to my sisters to play! When I walk in it's HI B! and then a bunch of mumbo jumbo that only he knows what he's saying and then I take my coat off and GAME ON! Tee hee ha ha... he grabs my hand shows me his stuff. We climb around things make forts, its just a blast. Wow...exhausting stuff! I never tire of him however! Even like last night we played and he was... CRABBY MONSTER! Meltdowns whenever anything didn't go his way. sigh... But he still fills my heart. I got to rock him to sleep (not for a minute but all the way asleep!! happy!!) last night. Ahhh I love that! Usually if you rock him, since he's getting bigger, he cant get comfy on you and he'll pick up his lil head look at you and say bye bye.. Inside of me: no no no I'm not ready to lay you down yet!, But I do.. then he says nin nite and i love you and you know if a bus hits you on the way out of the driveway, it's o.k. because your heart is ... Full!! I can't even imagine life without him and to think he was such a SURPRISE baby to us. God has a plan for us all and when you think your on the right road... well ya might come to a fork in the road, so keep your options open... you never know what he has in store for you to learn.
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January 15 falling in love all over again.....What an amazing weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh my goodness! It was awesome! Have you ever fallen in love? Then days, years, months pass by and yes you still Love that person with all of your heart, and then one day, they make you fall in love with them all over again? Then you smile at the sight of them, you get those butterflies, you just are in LOVE!
Well that's what happened to me this past weekend. As I mentioned before I've been married almost 11 years, nothing compared to the friends that we attended a surprise 40th Anniversary Party for.
O.k. let me start somewhere here..... G and I have been together for about 15 years now. I LOVE HIM!
For some reason along the years he stopped hanging out with his old crowd. (When I say old I don't mean age I'm talking time frame. ) So when we rec'd this invitation in the mail for a surprise party, I knew it wasn't going to be easy for me to get him to go. I had a "vibe" that it was important for us to go. I wont elaborate on the vibe but as the time came closer it was much stronger with much more detail attached to it. Any who I sent the RSVP back saying we were coming... G said no, no no... I said yes yes yes.. so for weeks we were going round and round about this. My fear with these friends is that because I'm younger, I'm worried that they think I'm the one keeping him from them.. .that couldn't be further from the truth. So now I'm kinda getting excited to go. He finally goes.... kicking and screaming all the way. UUGGHHH!! So we walk in to the hall and he is greeted immediately by lots of people. I'm totally fine with just hangin in the back ground while this happens and just smiling the whole time. He did introduce me to people and friends and I introduced myself to people, (that's just how I am). I know somewhat whom they are but I want to know more and for them to know me.. so.... HI! I'm G's wife S and you are who and how are you related to the Anniversary couple? All night I continued to do this. I heard some GREAT stories from my hubby's past.. some had me in tears, some made my stomach flip, some made me laugh until I was almost running to the restroom. It was great to hear them. I met some of his greatest friends that missed him tons! And their wives and kids (grown) and just lots of people. It was fun talking and meeting them all. (My cheeks hurt from smiling all night. My belly hurt the next day from all of the laughing.)
I had mentioned to G on the way there.. I hope there is dancing.. .I love to dance! Well there was!!! Wahoo!! So once the music started I was gettin my groove on. I was dancing by myself and with others that were dancing but not G. He doesn't dance. So then they play our (mine & G's) wedding song. And he asks me to dance. I was Happy!!! Then we go back to the gang and start talking some more. Later another good slow song comes on and he asked me to dance again. O.K.!!!! So now I'm on cloud 9! We haven't slow danced in..... hell I cant even remember when. But that night I seriously think he asked me to dance 7 different times.!!!! I Loved it! Its funny because I caught myself standing taller, standing proud, walking proud and just happy! And then on one of the danced it smacked me right in the kisser. I LOVE HIM more than ever! I start to giggle, he just looks down at me and says I love you! ...... OH HAPPY DAY!!!!!
So the entire night was great, his friends were fun fun fun and they loved me, we actually have lots of plans to hook up again soon. But most importantly.... I'm in love. I'm giggling, I'm smiling, my belly has butterflies when I think of us dancing. It must be love!
O.K. well gotta go for now.
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January 10 What is a friend?O.K. well I've got issues... It's a known fact. I try very hard to be a nice person to all that I come into contact with whether I know em or not. That's just me. I messed up in September.. I got caught into a web of Drama between me and a friend and it wound up kicking me in the teeth! We have or should I say HAD a very tight group of friends, and even tighter were the four of us. One little weekend changed all that! I hate that I admit my faults and apologize over and over again and they just keep their noses in the air and say yep you were wrong... YES I WAS BUT SO WERE YOU!!! UUUGGHHH now I just think that I need to give up on these friends and direct my energy towards someone whom is nice to me and respects me. Unfortunatley, I've been friends with these girls for over 20 years... Sigh! But I can't keep letting them beat me down time and time again and not to "include" me in their lives or want to be a part of mine. Funny thing is... It was all over something so damn petty that led to an F U fest! UUUGGGHHH!!
I'm way to old to do this... It makes me feel bad about myself, and hell I beat myself up enough they know that! I don't need this drama! Decisions on the horizon. Man It's gonna be a rough road for a while. The problem is I do bowl with some of these girls and I will not quit... I've committed and I don't break MY commitments. So come April... If they aren't any better towards me then I'm outta here!
O.k. I promise this will not always be a whine fest... I just needed to get it off my brain... and hopefully this helps.
January 08 LifeWell, I had an amazing weekend. Some hurt, mostly joy!!
Thursday I found out a very good friend of mine (so I thought) was having a huge party on Saturday and I wasn't invited. She and I had a "fallin out" back in November and I apologized and blah blah blah... and I guess she's not ready to go back into our friendship that has lasted for over 16 years. SIGH..... I'm dealing with it, it does hurt, but I'm dealing, what else can I do? The thing that really sucks is that because of my close relationship with another one of my girlfriends she didn't ask her either... that really bugs me. O.k. I get that you're mad at me but wtf did she do? Childish ways in our 30's.... maybe it's best I just leave it alone as bad as it hurts.
Friday had some great fun with some great friends learned a new card game, and had fun. Before that my sister needed me to watch her lil man.... O.K.!!! I love him so much! He's such a good boy.. 1 year and some months... Fun! And he loves to drag all the toys outta the toy closet and figure out which one is the most fun. Which usually ends up being the lil red wagon and the phone.
Saturday was good too. My family met up and my lil bro's work for a farewell luncheon. Other than my Psycho sister coming and wearing some god awful shirt (seriously if the shirt has little triangles where your boobs should be maybe you shouldn't wear it if your boobs are below them!!), it was fine. I didn't think that it was the greatest opportunity to visit with my brother whom had to wait on us. UUGGHH my family and their ideas some times. So after that we stopped at a friends house and I showed him some canning tips. OH BOY was he kinda freaking me out... I thought he might blow the whole thing up.. tee hee ha ha Sunday Ahhhhhhhh.... relax... and then I got a bug up my bum that I wanted to spend more time with my bro before he left. So I dropped in and went running some errands with him. It's so funny to me and my heart! You arent allowed to see someone for so long, 16 years because of family disfunction, and then once you are around them again, the love was like you never were away. Man the love I have for my brothers is unmeasurable. They are such decent men! Funny I just called my lil brothers MEN!! But they are, 19 and 20!! I'm so proud of them and love them more than they could ever imagine. Well I think the fact that I call, send cards, and emails and drop in... they either think I'm a stalker or that I love em!!! Tee hee ha ha.... My husband just laughs and says, "I can always tell that you just saw or talked to one of your brothers from the smile on your face" And mostly he can tell by the way I'm crying or my rage, that I've just talked to my sisters.. TEE HEE HA HA !!
The family drama!!! HA!
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January 05 NEWSo with the new year... I plan on a better version of me. I'm going to start this blog with a list about me... everyone has a 101 on their blog. I'm not sure I'll make it that long, but I shall try my best. Then during the year, I'm going to come back to this entry and see where I have made improvements along the way.
Here it goes.
1. I was born April 29, 1971
2. I'm one of seven children (2 whole sisters, 2 half bros, 2 step bros)
3. I'm the youngest of the girls and older than all the boys.
4. I moved out on my parent home when I was 14
5. Worked 2 jobs, and still managed to graduate High School with honors (there is no excuse!)
6. I've lived in Michigan all my life
7. I've been married for almost 11 years
8. My husband is 21 years older than me
9. My family is like one big DRAMA factory
10. I bowl every Thursday with the same girls for the past 9 years
11. I have some of the greatest friends in the world
12. My bestest friend in the whole wide world have been friends since 5th grade.
13. I am very blunt. Some think I do it to be mean.. nope just telling the truth as I see it.
13.5 I do lash out sometimes... oohh is it ugly... I hate this about me
14. I care for others sometimes too much. If I had a nickel for everytime I heard this!
15. I have no children, well 2 step, I'm even a grandma to three... AT 35!!
16. My husbands daughter hates me. I believe it's because her father loves me.
17. I bought myself a Harley Davidson Motorcycle for my 30th bday. It was a promise I made to myself when I was 14. I saved for 10 years and paid CASH for it! Wahoo!!
18. My husband loves me more than anything.. It is such a wonderful feeling he gives me.
19. I may be a blog addict
20. I love love love animals. I think anyone that helps animals are the most genuine of people.
21. I carry dog food, cat food, bottled water & bowls in my car incase I meet "someone" who needs it.
22. I get "vibes" from people. I feel their good, bad, joy, and pain. Not always a good thing.
23. I have dreams...crazy dreams... sometimes o.k. a lot of the times they come true.
24. I do not hide my emotions well.
25. I don't wear make up
26. I believe that good people find good people.
27. I don't really like my job, but I ADORE my boss and the others I work with.
28. I quit a high paying job because of the stress. I don't regret that.
29. I would prefer to live without clocks..eat when your hungry, sleep when your tired and work at everything else in the middle.
30. Both of my sisters and I have Schooliosis..it sucks
31. I'm only 5' 2", while my hubby is 6' 7" (go ahead laugh)
32. I've cut a chicken's head off...eeeewwww... yes they do run around.
33. I will not allow myself to fear an inanimate object. i.e. guns
34. I used to ride horses.
35. I've damaged every car I've owned since 1996. Not always my fault!
36. I love to meet people.
37. 98% of my shirts are Harley Davidson (my brother thinks it's more!)
38. I think women are complicated. Men are just much much easier to get along with.
39. I'm not sure I will ever go on vacation with women again. UGLY!
40. I love therapy laughter!
41. I wish I had a child
42. I beat myself up daily... another thing I hate about me.
43. I'm considered by my group of friends as the Momma Bear. Don't mess with em or you shall get hurt...I PROMISE
44. I'm not a very good housekeeper.
45. I do love to cook
46. I have no Grandparent living.. Man oh man do I miss them.
47. I have brown eyes.
48. I haven't worn a dress in over 2 years. Blue jeans please..
49. I hate hate hate panty hose.
50. I'm not organized
51. I don't like to shop
52. I'm over weight
53. For the first time in 19 years I do not own a cat. I'm not liking that.
54. Where ever we go, complete strangers tell me their lives. My friends and family said it's because it says TELL ME on my forehead
55. I've never been lost. Well emotionally yes, but driving, no. Even in a different State.
56. I can change my own oil, rotate tires, change my brakes on my own car.
57. I love to type....tee hee ha ha ... dont think I get the point across with lol
58. I used to think when LOL first came out that it meant Lots of Love. It confused me.
59. My grandmother was the princess of Poland before the war.
60. I'm a morning person. On vacation I wake before dawn everyday. Makes naps sometimes necessary.
O.K. that is it for now. I need to get some things done. I will add to it if something smacks me in the face. Tee hee ha ha !!
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