Well the weekend was certainly eventful! 

Friday Night went to Kzoo to have some fun with my brothers before the graduation.  It was fun.  Some beer was drank, some beer pong was played and I got to see naked college boys.  WAhoo... WHO wouldn't like that?!?!  tee hee!!   The boys decided to go skinny dippin and well they ran right in front of me from the pool to their apartment.  Tee hee ha ha It was funny!!

 

Saturday the graduation was good.  I didn't expect for it to hit me the way it did.   When he got on to stage it was like he was four again.  Odd!   He's the baby of all of my siblings and well of course when he graduated from High School it was wow he's a man now... but when he went on stage Saturday in that college auditorium, WOW! 

 

My dad was weepy all day!  I kept seeing him wiping the tears.  Of course he didn't want us to know he was weepy, so I would just love on him.  Needless to say by the end of the day he was exhausted.  Baby Bro graduated with a 3.95 gpa!  Wahoo!!!  Now it's time to find the right Med school for him. YIKES!  He wanted to take a year off and pay off some of his student loans but nobody wants to "hire" him.  They want him to do an internship which is working for nothing.   That's not gonna pay the bills!   So he's still looking... Hopefully something will come along.

 

Today, well it's been not so good.  I'm trying to fix our toilet at home.  And who would have thought that a flapper thingy would be so freaking hard to find?!??!   I went to the plumbing store and took it home and put in on and nope it doesn't work!  So back to the store and they told me they don't want to sell me another until I have the numbers from the toilet.   O.k.   well now that I've wasted my entire lunch hour on said toilet, I've got to try again tomorrow.   UGH!  So now instead of it draining 1/2 the tank with one flush it's sucking the whole tank down. 

So much for saving on the water bill!!

 

I'm hoping that the rest of the week is better than today for sure. 

Mom had a doctors appt today and she insisted that she was "fine" to go by herself.  Hoping to hear from her soon.

 

Have a great day!!  XOXOXOXO

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hello!!

Well it's another hot one out there!!  WHEW!  But this lil girl is not complaining.  Nope not at all.  I'm very thankful for the A/C working at my job and home. 

 

I went home for lunch today as I always do and was amazed that just since this morning how many flowers have opened up.  It's cool!  I wish I had the time to just sit and wait and watch them open. 

And my veggie garden... WOW!! 

I'm excited for the storm we are supposed to get because after mother nature waters for me everything grows like crazy!  Isn't that funny?!!?  Seriously I water every morning I'm out there in my PJ's @ 5:30am hose in one hand coffee in the other.  And yes it helps believe me.  (And it's an awesome way for me to start my day.)   And I do notice the flowers and gardens growing a bit here and a bit there.   But after a rain storm.   It's like you can tell my tomatoes grew like 4 inches! crazy I tell ya!

 

So I remember a few of you showing photos of your gardens earlier.... JoAnn, Beth Marie...(Stephen did you get one in?).. .  any body wanna show the progress.... Don't worry bout showing da weeds!  Every garden has em!    But I do wanna tell ya I've shared this with some of you already.   Great product.... Preen.   Pull out all the weeds (yes I know it's tough) roots and all scuff the top two + inches of dirt and sprinkle this on and water and no more weeds.  Yes it works believe me.  The only thing that will come up is the weeds that you did not pull or the ones where the roots weren't removed. 

However... the only downside to this stuff is you can not use it and plant seeds.  Plants must be approx two inches tall.

 

I went over to a friends house last night and worked in her flower beds for approx 2+ hours... WOW was it hot! She kept spraying the backs of my legs with the hose to keep me cooled off.  And of course I had to wet my head about 4 times from the hose cuz man it was HOT!   She tried very hard to talk me out of working out there but I had to it was driving me nuts! tee hee ha ha !    And then it happened.... I got stung... thank goodness I'm not allergic.. but I've had a lot of fun with the whole "swelling thing"  seriously fun!  I got stung right on my boob!  tee hee and since I was extra extra extra blessed in that department I was asking my hubby this morning asking OMG does it look swollen to you?!??  tee hee ha ha ha

 

O.K. well I look forward to your updates on your gardens! 

take care all & enjoy your day and remember this lil girl thinks the world of you!!  xoxoxo

 

O.K. well Mom had a doctors appointment this morning.  She got good and bad news... the good news is that he doesn't want to do surgery on her.  He's going to be changing her medications and seeing what effects that has.  The bad news is there is no "quick" fix and she needs to take care of herself and watch the effects these drug changes make on her.

She is an awful patient... let me just tell you.   I'm supposed to be caring for her and making sure of this and that and she is hiding stuff from me.   I find that out at the doctors office and I'm trying not to get angry really trying... My aunt was there as well and said, your sister called me and wanted to know why you refused to take her to the ER when she needed to go.  HUH??? WHAT????   UGH!   Not gonna stress over it just happy mom is doing good.

 

Golf...

I don't know if you watched any of the tournament over the weekend or golf on TV ever but why when the guy hits the ball, why does a moron man yell at the top of his lungs "GET IN THE HOLE!"  It drives me crazy! 

 

Teens and Parents....

Why is it that Parents today try to be "friends" with their teens?  Seriously... it could really harm them.   I heard a mother talking with her teen and laughing on the phone and when she hung up she told her friend, we need to stop over at the teen friends house and check to see if we can tell they had a party and take the beer cans back for them.   WHAT?!?!?   The teen she is talking about is 15 !!!  When did it become o.k. for 15 yr olds to drink??

Stupid... I don't think they will get it either until their teen either dies, gets pregnant, or gets a std.  DISGUSTING! 

WAKE UP PARENTS!!! 

 

Dogs...

Hubby insists that he doesn't want another dog.  I feel like a child that wants to bring one home and will have to hide it.  UGH!   I'm 38 if I want a dog I should be able to get a dog!  I'm not a kid and your for sure ain't my daddy! (tee hee) Easy Shelly!  

The lady came by to do the home inspection for the prison dogs.  She said we passed with glowing colors!  Wahoo!    Remember the 3 legged beagle I told ya about?  THe lady that came to inspect was her foster mom and she was over the moon to have me ask questions about that little girl.  Then all day Sunday while at the brother in laws house hubby asked me to show (on the computer) the dog to several different people...hmmm... what does that mean?  WHO KNOWS! tee hee ha ha  I did get a chance to show hubby the other little girls photo on the web, the one I mentioned as well... so he's thinkin. 

 

O.K. enough typing, gotta get busy.. I hope you are having a great week! xoxo

 

 

Mom is resting at my house as I type.  Hubby is there with strict instructions that if she wont stay laying down or taking it easy he's to sit on her and call me home.

 

Yesterday was a long day.   Mom went in for a stent.  Well once they got in there they noticed only a 30% blockage not bad at all, but saw some other bad stuff too!  So they elected not to put the stent in at this time. 

Mom's heart is in bad shape from the sounds of the doctor.   He told me that she's got a moderate leak (mild moderate and severe are the categories for that) in her valve.  Her heart is enlarged and there is severe damage to the heart.  Oh and it skips beats.  GREAT!!

 

So we have to go to the doctor on Monday to see what's next.  Mom was super disappointed and was terrified yesterday that while she was under they were going to do open heart surgery on her.  Took some time to calm her down.   Then some more time to wake her up to come home.

 

Last night she was doing great and then stood up quickly and was howling in pain.  FREAKED ME RIGHT OUT!  I thought for sure something horrible was happening like they told me to watch for, bleeding inside and etc.  OMG I thought I was gonna lose her.  We got her layed down with an ice pack and some pressure and she fell asleep.  I was like a new mommy.  I left a night light on in her room and went there to check on her all through the night. 

This morning she said the pain wasn't as bad, just sore and she feels better. 

I got out of the shower this morning and she was cleaning.   STOP!!!!

 

Gave her a scolding and hubby some instructions and have others going to check on her too!  

So thanks for your thoughts and prayers and please keep them coming we are not out of the woods yet.

 

I told her last week at the dr.s office nothing with you is simple so please do not think this procedure will be. 

Guess I was right.

 

The hospital we were at was HUGE!   Like 2 city blocks huge! but the way they do things made you feel like she was their only patient.  Never have I seen that before. It helped.

 

Well I've got tons of work to catch up on. 

Take care xoxoxo

me

 

 

Well it was a beautiful weekend in the north land.  Perfect weather.  The days were 75 and sunny with a slight breeze and the nights were brrrr... chilly 36 degrees....brrr....

 

Got up there late Friday night.  Wasn't able to hear the Red Wings play for the Stanley Cup.  We kept losing the station! DRATS!  I think that is why we lost.  tee hee... they needed me!

 

Found that we had pine or ground squirrels living in the soffits!  UGH!  I swear those rats are going to drive me crazy!  I've been trapping them and releasing them here at home, and never thought it about it for up there. UGH!  It's like their relatives from down here called up there and told them about me.   Not good! 

 

But I came out victorious!   3 Men + 1 pellet gun = zero squirrels      1 woman+ shovel = 2 dead squirrels.   I didn't want to kill them, but I had no choice.  They can not live in my house!  I did look like a mad woman running through the property with a shovel screaming!   tee hee ha ha ...

I still can't believe I caught up to them fast buggers!

 

Got more flowers planted up there hopefully they live.   They could use some rain this week for sure up there.  TOO DRY!    I always get nervous this time of the year when everyone starts vacationing up there and they become careless with their fires and such and before you know it there are wild fires going.  It's just spooky.

 

Well the Judge claimed this was by far the most heinous crime he's ever witnessed in his entire law career.  The monster still claims he tried to save her and not kill her.   UGH!   The court wasn't allowing anyone to speak at the sentencing.  Which is WRONG!  in my mind.   At least her son's letter was read.  It was powerful.  

The sentence was Life in Prison with out Parole.  YEAH!   That is what we had hoped for.  It was good to see the monster in his chains again.   Oh I hate him and I told him that on his way in and on his way out of the court.  Don't care if he didn't hear me, I got to say it.

So that's the final chapter for me.  I've got to try and move on.  I never ever will "get over it".  But I know that justice was served and he will never breathe free air again.  I do hope that the families of all involved can begin to heal.  I don't think they have even tried honestly.   Her sister bothers me.   She just wont stop with the ugly stuff.  I don't know if she enjoys the torture or the spotlight.  But it bothers me.  She has every right to hurt and hate, I know that, but I'm not sure she's not doing it for "show" which disgusts me.  And why would you bring your CHILDREN (3 of them all under the age of 13) to this court thing?  Why would you want them to know the disgusting crap that their Aunt endured.  People just shock me sometimes.   While both my hubby and myself were sobbing in the court room her family and his family showed no emotion what so ever.  I don't get it.

 

I do hope this week gets better with each day.  Right now I'm so crabby I can't stand myself.  I feel as though I'm on the verge of tears and just can shake it.   UGH!   I told boss man today would be a great day for me to call the dead beats (people who haven't paid their bills) and harass them.  He doesn't agree. 

 

I hope your week is beautiful.

ttfn

 

 

 

 

 

Things are changing for me.  

I don't feel so powerless to the mood swings.  I'm starting to be able to pull myself up from those depressing thoughts and feelings.   I'm getting stronger every day.  My soul is learning to smile and feel joy again.  And my heart isn't aching as much as it has for the past 16 Months.  

 

Monday will be the final stage in the HELL I've been living since February 2008.  I will allow the Great Lord above to hold my hand through my statement.  I will be strong and purge myself of the hate that is inside of me.  I must I know that.  I can not go on poisoning myself any longer.   I don't care if the Monster hears me or not.  I really don't it's for me (and the Judge of course).

 

I can tell you for sure that had it not been for GOD,  my fabulous loved ones on HERE and in my daily life I would never have been able to stand again.  So thank you all for the prayers, strength and love you have all given me.  

 

In honor of the changes that are going to continue in my life I changed my look too!   I got 8 inches of my hair cut off last night.  A new color too!   SO I'm a new chick!  I feel good and will continue to heal and breathe each day of the beautiful things that God has blessed me with.

 

I hope that although you may be going through your own hell, I hope you know that you are in my prayers and my love for you is real.  And never ever doubt that you were given more than you can handle.  It's not possible.  You may at times feel it is more than you can handle, but BELIEVE me You can get through it.   Allow those you love into your heart, allow the angels above the power to pick you up when you've fallen to your knees.  And when you are desperate for a sign that you will be o.k., quiet your sobs and listen.  For he is around you always. 

 

No, I will never be the same girl I was before this, that was hard for me to understand.   Very hard.   But I'm hoping that each day I will become stronger, more loving, more understanding and just a better WOMAN than I ever  was. 

 

I love you, I pray for you and I smile and laugh with you! xoxoxoxoxo

Shelly

 

 

First let me start by saying that Mom's appointment went well yesterday.  I got questions answered and we have a schedule made.   Still spooky to me but it's got to be done.  A week from Thursday is the day of the procedure.

 

O.K. I did something dumb at lunch today.  I went to an animal shelter.  I should never ever go to those.  They are heart wrenching to me.   I pulled into the parking lot and could hear all the doggies barking and my tears started.  So I sat there and talked with God and asked him for strength. 

I had been looking at a dog on the web at this shelter.  She's a cutie.   But holy cow does she have energy.  Endless amounts of bounding energy.  Not sure that's the dog I'm looking for. 

 

On my way out I saw this quiet little girl in her crate.   She looked just like my girl that passed at Christmas.   Same color, same tail.  Her name was Daisy.  I asked if I could meet her outside.   Oh she was so happy to go outside.  She did her business and then came over to visit with me.   She just sat there and stared at me with her one good eye.  Her previous owners didn't take proper care of her and she had an "accident" with her eye and they never got her medical attention for it so now she is blind in that eye.   Her fur is like puppy fur, soft and smooth.  

She is two years old and such a sweetie.  She's probably 35-40 lbs and just a nice looking dog.

 

O.K. so here's my problem.  

Remember how I mentioned before that I had applied to rescue a dog?   Well that dog was no longer available, which just crushed me.   However I asked them to please pre approve my application so that when a dog becomes available that I would like, I'm good to go.    These dogs they have go to a human prison where the prisoners teach obedience as well as house break them and teach them manners.  The dogs are in the prison for 12 weeks.  The cost for these dogs are $200.00.  They come fixed, shots, micro-chipped and trained.  Well the only thing left for them to do with me is the "home inspection" and for me to pick a dog.    The dogs wont be out of prison until the end of August. 

 

I've been looking on line at the dogs that just entered the program and I'm not crazy about any of them.  (I know that's horrible to say) but none of them have grabbed me.   I will only have a female dog.  Just my rule. And out of the 15 dogs they have in the program only 6 of them are female.  Two of them are breeds that I do not care for because of their "ways".  1 is a puppy and I don't want a puppy.   So that leaves 3.  One I think I could just fall head over heels in love with for sure.  She is a beagle with 3 legs.  But would that be a good fit for me?  She's not slowed by only having three legs, so we could still go for walks and such.

 

So now what do I do?   This quiet little girl that I met at lunch is house broken, but doesn't have any training.  She is fixed and micro-chipped and up to date on her shots.   She is the same price as the trained dogs.

I'm going to see if I can talk the hubby into going over to the shelter and meeting her after work one of these days.  Which wont be easy to talk him into.

 

So what do you think I should do?   I do feel bad that this rescue/prison dogs has pretty much done all the leg work for me.   And one of the ladies emailed me and said please pick your dog soon as applications are coming in fast.  

So do they even need me to adopt a dog?   I mean if there are others out there that want these dogs that's great! Because this other little one isn't even on the website.   UUUGGHHH!!   

I'm so freaking confused!!  There are so many dogs that need someone to love.  If I could save them all I would, but I can only have one.

 

Your thoughts????

 

 

Hello !!!

Hope your weekend was a great as mine.  It was busy but good.   Friday I went to watch my friends kids play soccer.  Ummm she failed to mention that it was family fun night at their fields!  Unlimited, Free, ALL YOU CAN eat cotton candy was being served....YIKES!  And boy oh boy were those kiddos wired!   Both kids won their games which was great.    After the game my friend came over for a bit to share some laughs and a cocktail.

 

Saturday AM up early.. hubby had to work (YIPEE!!) and I called and woke my friend up and said get your garden gloves on we are working in the dirt today.  Went over and helped her in her yard for about 5 hours.  She is so funny, her excuse always is I don't know a weed from a flower.  My reply is always... do you know what grass looks like?   Tee hee ha ha .... Her gardens are looking better, much more work needed but we'll get there.  Saturday night we watched our Red Wings pummel the pens!  It was such a great game!!  Then to bed as I was whipped!

 

Sunday of course we are up early.  Went and did some errands in the am and then to a 1st bday party.  It was a great party.  It was like we were at a baseball game.   Very good turn out!

 

Sunday evening I cooked what I thought was a delicious supper, grilled shrimp, baked tators and broccoli.  Well hubby didn't like having to "peel" the shrimp and he complained the entire way through... He will be hungry for a week!  I don't tolerate complaints well.  If you state I'm not crazy about this once I'm fine with it.  But when a grown man whines about dinner, well I'm on strike ! 

Tee hee ha ha

 

Have to go to the Dr. today with Mom to schedule the stent procedure.  And get some questions answered.

Hope it goes well.

 

I hope you have a fabulous week!  xoxoxoxo

 

 

Hello All!

Well Dad had a fabulous Birthday!  It was great all but 1 of his kids where there.  All of his grand babies were there.  He was in heaven!   And best of all he didn't stay in the kitchen the whole day.  We all decided no cookin for him and we all brought stuff.  It was perfect. 

I also got him the perfect gift..... an herb garden.  Well I had to buy all the herbs and the pots and put it together.  He was over the moon!!    I'm happy it worked out as good as I pictured it.  Ya know how that never happens for me, i.e. rototiller, leaf blower, etc.

 

Got lots of work done in my gardens this past weekend.   My mom came by and helped and then dropped a bomb on me.   She has to have a stint put in her valve I guess.  She is down playing it.  It's not surgery but a procedure... blah blah blah.   It's freakin serious mom!   UGH!    So we have to go to a few dr. appts and such within the next week to get things rolling.    I'd appreciate any prayers you can say for her.

Its very scarry for me.

 

Went to a friends softball game to cheer her on and OH BOY... it was Drama ball!  It's an all women's league and whoa!   It was just odd to see these women screaming and such.  It wasn't pretty! 

 

 

 

My psycho sister whom I choose not to speak to or associate with because of the hell she puts in my life when I do, has a very brilliant daughter.   I haven't really gotten to know her all that well since I don't speak to my sister.  I didn't want the kids to feel like they are in the "middle".  Well the daughter who happens to be almost 16 asked to talk to me alone.  And she very nicely let me have it.  She thinks it's time I forgive her mom and said it's my fault that the family is in riff and it's causing the entire family to be uncomfortable.  hmmmmm.................... I'll do a blog all about her next.

 

Hope your day is beautiful.  I hope the sun is warming your soul.  I hope that all of flowers are blooming. 

ttfn